It’s been a tough year for me.
This time last year, my whole life was flipped upside down in an unimaginable way.
One day, you’re walking about the world, looking at everything a certain way, feeling a certain way, and expressing yourself in a certain way.
Suddenly everything is different. How you think, feel, and see the world can never go back to the way it was before. It’s scary. And it’s so hard. And it’s constantly changing, even today.
On Dec. 26, 2014, one of the best people I have ever had the privilege of knowing left us in a sudden and tragic way.
Colleen was so many wonderful things. A few weeks shy of 21 years old, she was vivacious, she was hilarious, she was kind, she was thoughtful, she was brilliant. She was one of my three best friends at Loyola. I loved her and continue to love her so much. She was one third of my sun at Loyola. And then suddenly she was gone. As a result, my whole world got dimmer.
You find ways to patch together little glimmers of light here and there, but the light you once enjoyed can never be fully restored.
This new world is the one I must live in every day now, and I am trying to live the best life I can without her.